Monday, December 22, 2008

I have no computer..........

coming back from the jungle i realised that i had done less than i had expected to do. for one thingthe entire first week coming home was spent packing then shifting then unpacking thenarranging them and then it ALL repeats until the old house is void of stuff.

to make things worse my dear, dear laptop had a suspected hardware problem, causing it to be unable to detect wi-fi connection which is ESSENTIAL to my uni life... as of right now i'm using the library's computer, a new friend of mine which i'll probably see everyday after class until CNY.

T-T i wan my laptop back.....

anyway (dusts cobweds out of hair), the following is what i have done in the past month. and yes i realise i've been tagged *looks at multiple post it notes on self*

d stuff weren't exactly finished unpacked but i decided to take a break anyway XD went to MVwith chibi n the fox. i hvnt seen them since... 2006?5? dunno. ah well. my mind eludes me at thismoment, after much wandering around for foxy's parents' anniversary gift. we settled in at sushiking. free refills of green tea sucessfully lured us into sitting there for hours. that, and also theendless entertainment of 'mase mase'

was forced to unpack and arranged my stuff before allowed another break. that, and alsobecause people i asked weren't available that week. what's with the busy schedule on the second week of holidays?!! anyhow warmed seats at a table in taipan for two hours with a f6 friend.

*somewhere in between*
i went to get my 1119 cert. i suspect the clerks were not paying attention to me. i distinctly said I'm HEREFOR THE 1119 CERT. but she insisted on pushing the SPM claim form (i dunno what it'sactually called so whatever). it was not until i showed her my signature on the thing made two years agoand she was like 'oh! the 1119 cert izit?' and handed me the other signing thingy.

ate breakfast at a kopitiam with some f6 friends. after that left for a retraining hour of driving lesson, and NO.i DID not bang anything. it was.. peaceful. slow. but peaceful. having not driven since i got my license (okay once or twice that left my passengers WIDE AWAKE) for 6 months i had a bit of a phobia when driving, especially when i had to drive my mom's big, long, FAT Gen 2. havent tried my dad's Serena but after witnessing my skills i doubt he'd let me now.

i went out with the gakis which i have not seen for THREE years and also chibi n kitsune. yeah, itwas fun to see them all together again. somehow for the past few weeks whenever i go out witha bunch of people. we end up warming seats in some random restaurant. this time we successfully chose sushi zenmai after some thought and managed to stay inside for just under 3 hours. not bad, i'd say. the green tea was nice. but hot. but okay nevertheless.

on the 15th i went to cameron *imagines the syok-ness of the freezing cold* we went up the hill at night and it was raining. i vagyely remember thinking 'what if there was a landslide?' before i fell asleep in the car.

after that we WERE supposed to go straight to terrenganu but my dad needed to do something in KL so we ended up going back and heading out again on the 19th.


in a exactly month from now i'll be getting ready to go home...

wait for me, laptop!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008


we hereby interrupt this cobweb accumulating activity that has been going on for the past month or so for this important announcement...

i'm coming home!!!

after about a month of grueling exams i'll going back to civilization!! woo hoo!! ^-^ can't wait.

there IS one more on the 20th but what the heck. i'll probably reach home on the 22nd anyway.

oh well.

okay. back to studying.

thank you for your attention. it is highly appreciated. XD

we shall accumulate more cobwebs for now.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Tagged by the Nezumi

I hadn't been tagged for SO long i think i forgot how to do this.... *swt* i shall take a break from studying and assignments to fulfill the honour NEZUMI has bestowed upon me....


i think i'm getting crazy.

Okay. START. *takes deep breath*

Him/Her refers to Person who tagged me. *hint hint: see above* ^^

1. What’s the relationship of you and her/him?
the rat and the monkey.

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?



five.dunno... stern?? ^^"

3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you.


4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you
i'm not sure if she remembers but... heh even i don't remember when it happened.

we were standing outside the school hall (after/before a photo shoot, i think) then i SUDDENLY had my FIRST nose-bleed. she was one of the many people who helped me (i was damn confused at the time ^^") but the moment i vividly remember is Pn Shanti sending me off to the counselling room. XD

5. If she/he becomes your lover, you will
i dunno. argue with her all day long?? its fun ^^

6. If she/he becomes your enemy, you will
err... dunno. never thought of it. cause the probability is REALLY low. although from time to time she does throw limitless daggers at me.... never mind. running trains my stamina ^^;

7. If she/he becomes your love, she/he has to improve on
her chance of missing. with the rate she throws dangerous objects at me and those kena target, i won't last very long in that relationship.

8. If she/he becomes your enemy, the reason is
err.... dunno. you don't really need reasons to make enemies. but on the other hand, you don't need any reasons to be friends either.

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
hmm... what sort of question IS this? weird.... anyway... dunno. maybe if i spent longer times with the kappa n nezumi i might have an answer to this question.

10. The overall impression of him/her is
what impression can you have on a RAT? joking! joking! don't throw anything at me!!! nice person. ^^v

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
like they are hanging around a monkey.

12. The character of you for yourself is?
err... i have alot of personality quizzes about myself. type 'quiz' in the search box way up there... do you see it...?

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
the fact i'm a lazy, procrastinating sleepyhead primate.

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
myself. minus all my weaknesses. heh. if possible...

15. For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them.
aww... i care about and like you guys too!!!

*hint hint* remember to take time off and meet up with me when i come back end of the year!!! *hint hint*

Man i miss you people.

16. 10 people you tag:
-i return this tag to the NEZUMI
-Lessee... who else got blog... argghh... i know who i wanna tag BUT i dunno

that just made me look so sad. wait. i am. *sigh*

17. Who is No. 2 having a relationship with?

18. No. 3 a male of female?
I like to think that she's confused. lol

19. If No. 7 and No. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
nobody there... air goes together fine.

20. How about No.5 and No. 8?
Lynn n Blog....

21. What is No. 1 studying about?
GAH!!!! I'm sorry NEZUMI!!!! I forgot!!!! *begs for forgiveness*

22. Is No. 4 single?

23. Say something about No. 6?
someone who looks down on herself too much. Eh sakana. You are pretty, not fat n talented. Your drawings were and are always better than mine. period.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Stolen Quiz 2 of 3

Your Result
You are a very balanced person. You know when to be funny and crazy but also when to be serious and smart. People look up to you because of your intelligence and leadership skills. People often go to you for advice or just to have fun. You have a lot of friends but only a few close friends. You probably like to just tell people what your thinking to express yourself. You are very comfortable with who you are and aren't afraid to say what you think. You have probably been in love and understand that it has its ups and downs. You aren't afraid of the future although you know it won't be an easy experience. People see you as a kind, smart, funny, opinionated person.

Color: Orange

Animal: Eagle

Quote: "You can take the kid from the fight but cant take the fight from the kid."

Strength: Comfortable with who you are.

Weakness: Brutally honest. <---That's a weakness??

quite true i think. cept for some parts. XD

Sunday, October 05, 2008

Stolen Quiz 1 of 3

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Pulau Bidong Trip

I hereby start by saying that the lack of updates is due to the fact that I have NO time at all to go online, so its not like I didn’t want to do anything and was lazy. (Ok. There WAS once that I could have come down for the net service but I was tired. Or twice. XD)

Its a bit late but updating my trip about pulau Bidong. (Which I went and returned about…. Earlier this month ^-^”) basically it was fun, exciting but otherwise uneventful except for one thing (which will be disclosed later). I really regret not taking any videos but I have many pictures ^^v which will be made into a movie clip of some sort and uploaded later.

Anyway the first day after arriving on the speedboat, we were told to swim from the beach to a stationary boat… err… forgot the distance…. But it was at least 1 kilometer away. I think. But it WAS far. And you had to SWIM! Then we went on the boat and jumped from it back into the sea. The height of the boat… 2 meters above sea level. FUN! YAY!

We were lucky because the jellyfish season was almost over when my course went. When the first batch went, jellyfishes were abundant and roaming all around. Therefore many people were stung. Our batch… well. You had to be lucky to even see the jellyfish. Although there were two people I know that are so goddamn lucky the jellyfishes shook hands with them. XD and it, well, was severely painful. Ahhh memories…

Second day we spent an hour each climbing the island mountain, canoeing, snorkeling and fishing. The island was actually a refuge place for Vietnamese during the warring period so there was a settlement there (rotting away…) anyway there was a memorial, a church, a school, temple… btw the temple. You know in a normal temple there are deity statues and such. In this temple all the heads of the deities were cut off.

Why? Well the explanation was that there was a legend (rumor?) that the Vietnamese brought valuables and gold and such with them during their escapade and hid them in the head of these statues. So when you do there it’s just that. You see headless statues.

Unfortunately my camera wasn’t waterproof so obviously no pictures of corals while we went snorkeling. The corals were beautiful!! But the species that were there are limited. The fishes there were VERY cute. Somebody brought bread to feed them and all of them surrounded us for more. My buddy forgot to take out a piece of paper out of her pocket and it floated out. Then the fishes went and nibbled at the thing. XD

Some people saw a baby shark near the rocky coast but I did not have time to go there. T-T

Fishing was fun too. My group WON the fishing comp with a total catch of 34 fishes. There was a person who fell asleep fishing and when she woke up and pulled the line there was a fish on the hook. Lol. Anyway we had the fish for BBQ but the scales weren’t properly cleaned. But it tasted great anyway.

In the mornings we woke up and did aerobic exercises. When volunteers were asked to lead us in the exercise, they did REALLY stupid but nevertheless fun to do exercises. After that we had to sing patriotic songs –dengan PENUH semangat-

At night it was basically group activities. We arranged a performance for each group and it was goddamn funny. No videos. T-T

Just before we went back there was a canoe competition! WE WON! WE WON! Wahahahahahahh………….. That, I have videos. Shall be uploaded later.

After that our group flag got stolen and in order to claim our flag, we had to go back in the seawater. We were MORE than happy to of course but here’s the part that I got depressed about.

I totally forgot that my camera was in my pocket.

My BRAND NEW camera.

And I was so totally excited I went in the water first, pulling many others.

Oh well.

What’s done is done. But one good thing did come out of it though. When I sent my camera for repair, they said to repair it would cost more than buying a new camera. But they offered to by it back second hand at normal price as a trade in if I wanted another camera.



I have a new camera.

And its waterproof.

10 FEET!!!!!!!!!!!!


But its goddamn heavy compared to the old one.

Saturday, August 02, 2008

Yet another 'personality' quiz?

The SEME or UKE Quiz
created with
You scored as The Homicidal SEME

You are the truly highest level of SEME as well as the most dangerous and sadistic. You love to force others to do your bidding and have absolutely no clue what others mean by 'feeling sorry'. You like the dark, evil, and heartless but nothings fun if you don't get to break it. You will not tolerate others pushing you around and an easy word for your personality is bossy. You could skip the romance and get right to the bed if you wanted to but then again you never even need the romantic-hoo-ha and that's why you're matched with he Devilish UKE. All UKE fear you in some way but that's jut how you like it. You could never befriend anyone that your little Devil-UKE didn't show you to which means the only SEME you would get along with would be the Breaker SEME. It has been established that you are the kinkiest kink in all of kink-town but one thing you really love is to make your partner beg and to punish them. Don't be afraid, be insane.

The Homicidal SEME


The Devilish UKE


The Breaker SEME


The Gentle SEME


The Optimistic UKE


The Sorrowful UKE


Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Life so far...

For the record... i have SIX assignments lined up deadline on thursday.

NOTES for SIX subjects lining up to be printed.

PREPARATION work for an upcoming trip to Pulau Bidong (A must for ALL first year students in UMT) where i heard the trip is fun (YAY!!!) but the living conditions are... err... heh.

shall break my lifetime ban of not uploading pics of myself on the net and upload pics of my stay in Pulau Bidong when i return from there...

oh. which reminds me.

I'M GONNA GET A NEW CAMERA!!!! *jumps around in exitement*

Friday, July 04, 2008

Reporting Live...... from TERENGGANU!!!!

i know i havent updated in a while.....

not my fault...

went to terengganu on saturday... and since then there has been stuff to do non stop.


haiz..................... anyway for the past week i was in orientation in UMT. class doesn't start till next week. everyday since i've been here i woke up at 6am and slept at 1am (average. sometimes even later)

maybe i'll post some pic/vids if my dad brings the camera + cable to terengganu. until then.... eh... what else to write? dunno.

except for the very BIG difference of weekends here.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Relax... Chill down...

okay so i was being an ungrateful brat just now. AND i made an idiot of myself. come to think of it marine biology is pretty cool. just that i never envisioned myself being a marine biologist (i just only found out that being one is somewhat like a aquatic vet if given the chance)

the course itself is pretty fun, i guess. but then agen most courses are. i just don't see bright job prospects for me yet someone told be that i neednt worry about that as i'll always be able to find $$ (o.O ookay...)

maybe i'll appeal for a switch of course in the second semester.

comments n suggestions n whatever please...

UWAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! *stress, frustration TOTAL MIND BLOCK*

checked the stupid website today. demanded for my angka giliran. didn't have it. called ten ppl to find out what was it. got it. entered site. site said no you entered wrong category. fed up. smsed. after 5 sms they sed top find out third week of june. fed up. tried site couple more times. fed up again. tried sms. got result...

my GOD i got UMT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

didn't know what course yet from the code given but definately knew wasnt what i was hoping for. called fren to find out....

MARINE BIOLOGY????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay so i DID apply for it so yeah... can't even appeal online cause its only for rejected ppl who didn't git anything.

i'll cool down for a bit first before i start being an idiot about this...

Friday, June 13, 2008

Friday the Thirteenth!!! o.O

nothing much. saje wanna post on friday the 13th. that, and the fact that its been a week since i posted anything.

err... nothing new. still gettin' rejected by JPJ (hate level increase)
err... STILL hafta wait til third week of this month for my UPU result (hate level increase summore)
err... what else... me have no test therefore no driving license. (hate level for JPJ increase MAX)

oh well. thats it i guess. sorry for the broken engrish. i have bad grammar, i know. lol XD

sorry for the lame-ness of this as well.

i think i have fever...

Friday, June 06, 2008

arrgh.... go die la JPJ

i was actually supposed to take my driving test last wednesday but the stupid JPJ rejected my exam entry last minute. AFTER i put in 6 hours of practice! (but more practice is always good) anyway i think my next test is next week... aiya have to call and confirm...

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Does this sound familiar to anyone? *hint*PBP*hint*

"Once upon a time a long time ago, Guy A found a rock and declared it his. After a short while he found no use for the rock and said he won't claim it as him anymore.

Then Dude B comes along and asks for the rock because he thought it was the perfect size as his paperweight. A gives B the rock and B works on the rough edges of the rock to make it smooth for safer use.

A :HEY! you are destroying the rock!
B: It's my rock. i can do whatever with it.

later B found there was a diamond in the rock.

A:ooh! whats that shiny thing? A DIAMOND??!! Where'd you get THAT??
B: It was in the rock you gave me.
A: Then its MY diamond!! Give it back!!
B: No way! the rock was given to me!! ITS MINE NOW!!

they went to an neutral person to judge who should have the rock.

MR Neutral : A, you gave B the rock. When you give something away, you don't ask it back. you're not borrowing the rock to B. you GAVE him the rock. so the diamond is his.

B got the diamond. but seeing A so distraught the MR Neutral took a smaller rock nearby and gave it to A.

A: Okay you can have THAT diamond but I'm gonna take all the other rocks i can find!! Then i'll be rich, RICH!!!!"


if this doesn't sound familiar then it probably wont be funny... -_-" which then makes me a very bad story teller....

anyway for those ppl who understand, then they should understand this also:

"if you wanna give, give. you dont wanna give, DONT give. already 50 years old but still act like 5 year old kid. grow up for gods sake!"

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Am I really THAT scary?

this happened today when my family was at the pasar malam. i was standing at this vegetable stall while waiting for my mum to buy our weekly greens when this brat, ops, boy kicked a styrofoam fruit box at me (the opposite stall was a fruit vendor).

it hit the edge of my shoe.

okay, so being the curious person that i am i looked in his direction to see who was the hyperactive kid that simply kicked stuff around at his whim. at that moment his mom, who was with him glanced at me as well and told the kid (who was actually hiding partially behind his mother) :

"see you simply kick things at people afterwards people beat you up only you know ah."


all i did was raise my eyebrow at the fella.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

My First Tag! ^-^ -thx kitsune!-

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time: 9.00 pm Wednesday 14th May 2008

Name: You should know me by now o.O
Sisters: 1
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: 6? 7? which country size you talking about?
Height: err... i forgot. a bit under 6 ft?

Where do you live: wherever i can survive...
Favourite drinks: depends on mood. mostly cold stuff
Favourite breakfast: egg! sausages! ham! eggs! seafood? o.O oh and did i mention eggs?

Have you ever been on a plane: whats a plane? *looks at flying piece of metal in sky* oh that. no.
Swam in the ocean: no. waded in it tho. water level not high enough to be swimming in. (parents prefer we keep close to shore in case a tsunami comes and sweeps us all to our horrible, watery grave)
Fallen asleep in school: I don't sleep in school. I just take power naps. XD
Broken someone's heart: does a rat count? when i did my rat dissection i tore out its heart and cut it in half (thats considered broken right? its not whole anymore) but it was dead for a LONG time so there wasn't any blood -_- (was severely disappointed) i have pictures of it though. its really small. btw the rat's name is tommy, christened it before the dissection lol.
Fell off your chair: err... not that i remember. but instead made many others fall from THEIR chair. XD
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: SMS, yes. but normally i fall asleep cuz i put my phone on my bed and wait there.

Saved e-mails: of course! one must utilize the amount of space that is provided to save your emails in your inbox! its what the service is created for!
What is your room like: its not my room anymore. i share it with my sister. Oh the AGONY.........
What's right beside you: my cat. oh wait. he jumped off the CPU he was sleeping on. now its just the CPU.
What is the last thing you ate: prawns.

Ever had chicken pox: had a mild one when i was little so the doctors said i might not be immune to it and might get it again. so people with chicken pox! STAY AWAY!!
Sore throat: yup. every time it yell at my brother/father (no often though, thank GOD. my sore throats are terrible!)
Stitches: err... 2 stitches when my brother threw something sharp at my eye (on my eyebrow) when i was... standard 3? 5? dont remember. and another 2 on my hand when McCoy (clinic resident blood donor dog) bit me at work three years ago. ^^;
Broken nose: nope. but i think i might have broken some guy's nose during practise. nah. dun think so. his nose looks fine the practise after. (was abit worried when it bled tho... *swt*)

Do you believe in love at first sight: yeah. and i also believe that 99% of those relationships do not work out in the end. ^.^
Like picnics: never been on a proper one. but i wouldn't like it anywhere in this country i suppose. it'd be too hot.
Who was the last person you danced with: i.... dont dance -_-"
Last made you smile: a four month old kitten named Urkle at work XD
You last yelled at: a dog that did not stay still while i was trying to shave off all his hair (at work). not very loud though. i WAS working.

Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: i like most people. and i talk to most people ; )
Kissed anyone: no
Get sick: had a mild irritation that caused me to sneeze at later part of day - hazard of working with furry animals
Talked to an ex: talked to an ex-Assuntarian ^^;
Miss someone: yep. i didnt manage to hit my brother when i threw his bag at him. (need to seriously brush up on my aiming skills)
Eat: what do you think?

Best feeling in the world: standing outside with just T-shirt and jeans on a drizzling night in Genting (parents wont let me out if the rain's heavy XD)
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: no. they are disiplined to sleep on the shelf. independent toys. yeah.
What's under your bed: i think one piece of guitar tab is there but i'm too lazy to get it out. oh and my bed obviously isn't floating.
Who do you really hate: pushy customers. wait. make that pushy RUDE customers.
What time is it now: 10.00 pm (o.O its been an HOUR?!)

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now: people actually. im working out the lastest storyline to my story. or must it be a real person?
Q: Do you have any siblings: deja vu... i believe i answered this... 5 years... three months... an hour ago...?
Q: Do you want children: dunno. i dislike other people's kids/brats.
Q: Do you smile often: err... depends on mood? *sinister smile*
Q: Do you like your hand-writing: its passable. do you?
Q: Are your toenails painted: course not.

Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: i dunno. who do you know that has a bed lined with cash and other valuables (preferably who do not realise it himself)?
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing: white Tiger shirt
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday: counting money.

Q: I can't wait till: the UPU results come out!! God they are so damn slow! after that i'll have other stuff to wait for.
Q: When did you cry last: Form 4? God that was so embarassing. Come to think of it i dunno why i did it. -_-"
Q: Are you a friendly person: To most people. *fake smile* lol
Q: Do you have any pets: I have... a CAT (see previous post). there are tadpoles in my house tho (my brother) and fish (my father) XD

Where is the person you have feelings for right now? in writing (my story).
heh heh. I need to have feelings for my characters or else they wont seem alive to me.
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?
i held hands with.... err..... does shaking hands count?
Do you sleep with the TV on?
nope. i sleep with the radio on sometimes. ^-^

What are you doing right now?
watching eyeshield 21, reading newspaper, thinking, plus all the necessary stuff to survive (breathing, pumping blood, etc.)
Have you ever crawled through a window?
nope. but i broke into a house once though. by accident. i thought it was my house. lol

Are you too forgiving?
it depends heavily on the person who did me wrong.
Are you closer to your mother or father?
my mom.
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
whoever who knew when and why i cried the last time would know who she is.
How many people can you say you've really loved?
err... i really dunno how to reply this.

Do you eat healthy?
not really. am i gonna die soon? *faints*
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?
my ex...teacher? my teachers are always my teachers. they will never be ex-ed. XD yeah i even had one of my standard 6 teacher. ^-^
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?
Nope. what others say dont affect me too much emotionally.
How often do you go to church?
this is such a stupid question. what? you expect EVERYONE to be christian? lol. just joking. i set foot in a church... twice. in my lifetime.

If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?
myself. preferably in a empty dark room with my blade for company.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?
i dunno. depends on mood of the moment?
Are you confident? i would think so. i think. oh wth im not even confident with my answer XD

5 things I was doing 10 years ago.. (o.O thats nearly half my life! wow! lol)
1- going to school
2-doing homework
3-taking almost daily tests
4-having quarter yearly exams

5 things on my to-do list today
1- post this tag
2- practise guitar (class tmr... ^-^" have to make sure im fluent)
3- finish reading the newspaper
4- think of what to do tmr (my off day... yay)
5- get some sleep

5 snacks I enjoy
1- cadbury dark chocolate
2-any dark chocolate (with a quality standard)
3- twisties -chicken
4- double decker - prawn
5- cheezels - original

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1-get accepted to do veterinary science in a foreign university (new zealand, australia?) and hop on a plane to pursue it
2- get three dogs (a siberian husky, an alaskan malamute, and a black alsatian)
3-get a huge kennel with air conditioning and rooms for my dogs including bathroom, kitchen and living hall.
4- put the rest in FD to generate interest
5- use the interest to get whatever else i want XD

5 of my bad habits
1- money minded (is that a bad habit?)
2- lazy
3- need too much sleep
4- fond of staring into space (wasting time)
5- doodling on odd pieces of paper?

5 places I have lived in
1- cheras (till standard 2)
2- old klang road (till standard 5)
3- PJS 7, bandar sunway (till form 3)
4- PJS 9/3A bandar sunway (till form 4)
5- PJS 9/3B bandar sunway (till form 5)
... i have more... we actually shifted 3 times since then. plus there are the places we stay during vacations....

5 jobs I've had
1- Student (looking forward to being one again)
2- Babysitter (all my grandparents' grandchildren. excluding me, of course. oh and those who are elder)
3- Veterinary Assistant (the only one which pays real $$)
4- temp loan shark? (i charge very low interest rate... heh heh) -not doing it anymore. unless you WANT me to?-
5- err... scary bishonen-looking but perverted bi-sexual rapist back in form 5? o.O *swt* wasn't really a 'job' but wth.

5 people I tag
1- people who wanna steal this. but since i dunno who u are i can't sign your guestbook.
3- um...

^-^" everyone who i know who has a blog has already been tagged... err... im not gonna sign your guest book but zwei do you wanna be tagged?

Saturday, May 10, 2008

I'm high on .... Green Tea??? o.O

as of right now i still cant do much rational thinking cause i'm still feeling the after effects of... yeah, green tea. i drank too much apparently and its a bit slow in wearing off.

ah whatever.

anyway to prevent myself from posting ridiculously stupid stuff and look like an idiot for doing it, i decided to post something that require no brainwork. (i hope)

so everyone, meet my.... CAT!

*bursts out laughing* ops. that wasn't supposed to happen. its the green tea i tell you! its plain not healthy for consumption!!

that. was so random, anyway that was my cat at 3-6 months old. so obviously he doesn't look like that anymore. now he looks like this:
okay. that's it. i do have more pictures of him but it would just flood the whole place up therefore im leaving it in to storage. by the way he loves going on vacations. we bring him along. ^-^

oh and for the record, i castrated him and his name is JEDO.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Hirai Ken 平井堅 - Aika(Elergy) 哀歌(エレジー)

you wouldn't know how estatic i was when i found this song! believe it or not i have been searching for this for the past TWO YEARS ever since i heard it on music station (a japanese music show that airs the week's chart toppers)

Since i was unable to remember the name, only the artist, i had been going through his albums one by one and then i FOUND it!!!


okay i know most of you guys dont actually READ japanese so im gonna paste the romanji lyris + english translation below.


Shigamitsuita senaka ni sotto tsume wo tatete
Watashi wo kizamikonda motto yume no naka e

Hirahira maichiru hanabira ga hitotsu
Yurayura samayoi yukiba wo nakushita

Sono te de sono te de watashi wo yogoshite
Nando mo nando mo watashi wo kowashite
Asebamu samishisa wo kasaneawase
Mabushikute mienai yami ni ochiteku
Itsuka horobiyuku kono karada naraba
Mushibamaretai anata no ai de

Kono yamai ni namae ga areba raku ni nareru
Hamidasu koto ga kowai douka mure no naka e
Hirahira maichiru hanabira ga hitotsu
Yurayura samayoi anata wo mitsuketa

Kono te de kono te de anata wo yogoshite
Nando mo nando mo anata ni oborete
Senaka awase no fuan to yorokobi
Namiuchinagara watashi wo tsukisasu
Itsuka kiete yuku kono omoi naraba
Ima hikisaite anata no ai de

Sono te de sono te de watashi wo yogoshite
Nando mo nando mo watashi wo kowashite
Asebamu samishisa wo kasaneawase
Mabushikute mienai yami ni ochiteku
Itsuka horobiyuku kono karada naraba
Mushibamaretai anata no ai de
Watashi wo yogoshite sono te de sono te de


As I clung to you, you dug your nails into my back
And carved me, taking me deeper into a dream

One of the fluttering, scattering flower petals
Wavers, wanders, it’s lost its place

Dirty me with your hands, with your hands
Break me again and again, again and again
We put our two sweaty lonelinesses together
And fall into a bright, invisible darkness
If my body’s going to die one day
Then I want it to rot from your love

I’d feel better if this sickness had a name
I’m afraid to stick out, I move into the crowd somehow
One of the fluttering, scattering flower petals
Wavers, wanders, I’ve found you

I’ll dirty you with my hands, with my hands
And drown in you again and again, again and again
Our two backs together gives me anxiety and happiness
That comes in waves, penetrating me
If this love’s going to die someday
Tear me apart now with your love

Dirty me with your hands, with your hands
Break me again and again, again and again
We put our two sweaty lonelinesses together
And fall into a bright, invisible darkness
If my body’s going to die one day
Then I want it to rot from your love
With your hands, dirty me, dirty me

now you know why i like this song? the song tune itself is so catching and the lyrics are so meaningful + a bit sadistic... heh.


Thursday, April 17, 2008

i checked the stupid gov's site for results again few days ago and clicked on a link that told me if i wanted to know th estatus of my registration, i have to sms my ic to a certain number. i did so and then:

(translated short version)
your entry has been accepted and is under process. kindly enquire your results starting the third week of june 2008. thank you.

what the hell??!! i paid for the sms too!!! HELLO! if all you wanted to tell was that stupid crap cant you just post if in your goddamn website??!!

oh wait. so THATS their plan. to get all the people who sent in the entries to sms them and they receive the money we paid for the sms....

i should have known....

imagine if a small sum was taken from each of us how much would they get if there were, say 150,000 over people applying??

i cant believe i was SO dumb falling for their stupid money sucking tricks.

as i said the results arent out yet, so its expected. okay. it could then be expected that they acted fast in the ONLY thing they were ever fast in: SUCKING OUR TAXPAYERS MONEY.

and im not even old even to pay tax yet... argh.

Monday, March 31, 2008

Lessons in Logic

If your father is a poor man,
it is your fate but,
if your father-in-law is a poor man,
it's your stupidity.
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Practice makes perfect.....
But nobody's perfect..... .
so why practice?

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If it's true that we are here to help others,
then what exactly are the others here for?

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Since light travels faster than sound,
people appear bright until you hear them speak.

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How come 'abbreviated' is such a long word?

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Money is not everything.
There's Mastercard & Visa.

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One should love animals.
They are so tasty.

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Behind every successful man, there is a woman
And behind every unsuccessful man, there are two.

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Every man should marry.
After all, happiness is not the only thing in

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The wise never marry.
and when they marry they become otherwise.

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Success is a relative term.
It brings so many relatives.

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Never put off the work till tomorrow
what you can put off today.

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'Your future depends on your dreams'
So go to sleep

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There should be a better way to start a day
Than waking up every morning

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'Hard work never killed anybody'
But why take the risk

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'Work fascinates me'
I can look at it for hours

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God made relatives;
Thank God we can choose our friends.

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The more you learn, the more you know,
The more you know, the more you forget
The more you forget, the less you know
So.. why learn.

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A bus station is where a bus stops.

A train station is where a train stops.

On my desk, I have a work station....
what more can I say........

Saturday, March 22, 2008

i checked my application for IPTA tody at the government's website but as usual they were slow at announcing the results for the lucky accepted people. my friends had told me it would be out end of march but i highly doubt it. i expect it to be out only early june.

hey, be realistic. we are talking about the governments here.

since when they are fast??!

maybe when they are going to suck our taxpayer's money.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

What is my best quality?

Take this test!
People who are highly intelligent are more likely to be unique than many. Higher intelligence also offers greater possibilities in terms of how someone is likely to interpret the world. In addition, intelligent people are typically more able to articulate themselves well and to have high integrity.


sometimes, while living in this world, you feel like wanting time to stay still and not go forward. you want to remain in that moment forever and ever and ever. but im sure everyone had once, when they were very young, had thought "i wish i was grown up", "i wish i'd grow up faster", "i wish time would speed up"

why?? why?? WHY??

someone once told me, "the only people who dont want to be kids, are kids."

i think that makes a whole lot of sense. i mean once you grow up, you realise that adulthood is not all you imagined it to be. you start worrying. stress comes along and waltzs into your daily life as if it belongs there.

at 3 your world is everything. everything belongs to you. people wait on you hand and foot, you dont enough have to worry about dressing yourself.

at 7 you start going to school. by then you have to dress yourself or it would seem indecent, you even have to tie up your own shoelaces! oh god what hard work! but its okay. you say to yourself, im a tough kid. i can take on the world.

at 15 you start to have tougher choices. what to study, how to study, where to study, where should i go, what should i be when i grow up, what do i need to prepare myself for the adult world? here you still think of growing up, to be an adult. because, hey you are a tough kid! you can take it! yeah!!

at 20 you wince. your life of education is nearly over. early signs of stress starts pouring in. on god i dont have enough money to further my education... i didnt get the university i wanted... i didnt get the course i wanted.... u feel you need so many things to continue your life happily.

then from then on, you think...

if i was a kid i neednt worry about this. i wish i was a kid again

Edu fair

i went to this education fair today to decide what to do with my life. unfortunately out of more than 400 universities and colleges there only a miserable THREE were able to somewhat help me.

i first went to taylors college but the ppl were too preoccupied to help me with my queries so i decided to come back later

so i went to this booth where they help students who wants to study overseas and was attended to by a nice lady. when i told her i had taken STPM and wanted to do another pre-u course she said "hey if you are planning to do that why not take the intensive a levels where they get a professional to coach you personally so that you are guranteed your best results? SAM would do much help if u want to keep your country of choice options open."

she says that this would be the best choice for me as the course was short (9 months compared to the usual 18 months) and neednt waste my time. the college she recommended was one top the top 5 in new zealand and had a 90% guarantee that i would get a course in university.

so far what she said sounded so good that i knew there had to be a catch. it costs 60k to study over there. stationary, accomodation etc included. its not that bad, considering its cost 30k++ to study it locally. just without the intensive tutoring thats all.

i wanted it. my parents didnt. so i left to look at college B. they were helpful, when i told them i was an STPM leaver, they to me about the express a level program they had and that although it had started in january, i could join them since i had the foundation and could catch up easily since i was qualified in every way.

i could take the express course, take the final examin november, receive my results in january, and if they were good enough i could use them to apply for next year's febuary intake in new zealand/australia.


there is a god!

that got my hopes up so high i cant measure it. i thought 'this is it! this is what i had to do! yes!!' then just when they finished telling me what i had to do to register and what i was going to do, a call came from 'the boss'. she said i can only take 3 subjects.

i said ok no problem. i took 3 subjects in STPM anyway.
then she said "you cant take bio. you must take physics, chemistry and maths. you took physics in STPM right?"

my whole world crashed on me. the light at the end of the tunnel vanished instantly. i didnt take physics in STPM.

so god didnt like me that much after all.

i went back to college A to ask the same thing. they also told me the same things except that they do not recommend the express course and didnt have it as it was not good for the students. however the option is open if the students insisted. another difference is that a levels in college A is RM2000++ cheaper than college B.

thats it. financially id choose college A due to the cheaper pricing. but oersonally i want to chose college B because i dang well HATE the area college A is in. college B is in a community im familiar and comfortable with, at least.

thats the three. my rant for today is over. as for my plans...

my head hurts when i try to think. so i try not to.

what am i to do?

wait. thats a thinking question. forget it.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008


im very depressed now. cuz i just got my STPM reults today. not that i didnt except it but i suppose im angry with myself for not working harder for a better reult.

what a waste of two years.

this is going to sound like im blaming my fault on everyone else but i wanna say it anyway.


okay. fustration vented.

list of people im blaming:
my dad: for moving the house and forcing me to transferr from a superior school to a stupid one.
the new school : for having BAD administration
for ruining my mood to study in school
for being so stupid and uptight
for having unnecessary rules

tons of stuff about the new school. you probably think by now that im just a brat but if you arent in my situation you wouldnt know.

okay so maybe im unable to adapt myself. but still!


i still KNOW i'll do better if i did not tranfer schools.

if you wanna know why i condemn the school and which school is it (assuming you live in my country) give me a line.

or else i dont see a reason to bother. this is so far just a rant space for me.
okay. im dont think anyone's reading this cuz i never told anyone about this place although i created this blog around 2 years ago. so to anyone reading this. congrats. you have found yourself into one of the most disoriented blogs in the world.

im not a techie so i dint know how this worked and i gave up after a while. not that i know alot about it now but thats not the point. finally i managed to open this AGAIN after two months of trying to remember my email that i used to open this blog and i FINALLY found it. yeah im one of those ppl that create many emails with different servers n hog all the nice names to myself...

not that i have alot. i only have six at last count. i was forced to open a google mail in order to access this blog. unfortunately someone snagged my usual username and i spent hours thinking of a substitute.


anyway i'll see if i can clean up this place a little. learn how to use it. beautify it like how the others look...


that'll take a while...