For the First time~

I wonder if i am a masochist. Sadist i KNOW i am since a long time ago, and i think deep down each and every one of us has a little sadistic nature in them. i mean, when someone falls, don't we like at least smile before rushing over in concern? second part is probably not in most people ^^

Anyway, back on track, i say that because think the pain from the muscle ache i'm experiencing now is kinda... nice? haha. takes me back to the days when i was training at Assunta. i used to always wake up on Sundays with muscle aches that lasted for DAYS! but i always looked forward to it XD

my campus has a badminton court!!! muscle ache result from that. damn! to think i never realised it in my two years here!! then there's a pool table we could use, too!! all free!! wahahahhaa~!

kay. i'm getting carried away. carrying on to more sobering news. my car has battery/wiring/alternator/what not problems. so i have to go get it fixed tomorrow. praying that it's the battery and tomorrow i NEED to finish filming!!! GAH!

About the pool table: It was always lying in the Pusat Sukan and i always wondered "How the heck anyone's gonna play this without equipment??!" when i passed by. Turns out they let you borrow it from the office. ^^ So means can play during office hours only. One complaint though, they SHOULD fix the fan. It was friggin hot. Imagine working up a sweat while playing pool!!

The other discovery was fun too (badminton court). Back when I used to play every week, I could take on a double pair by myself for a full hour before resting. Now with the lack of exercise~I could only tahan for like half an hour before timing out. ==ll

So as I’m typing this now my whole body is aching. except my left hand - never used it lol. but my right hand involuntarily shakes from time to time. XD abit like ouji's o.O

I booked the court next week too! hahahaha~

New Quiz

Everyone seems to be post this this results and swearing that's its the most accurate they've ever seen.

If any one hasn't tried it yet go HERE.

Best Occupational Category

You're an ORGANIZER wor? really ah~? let my roommate see sure she say wrong one

Keywords

Self-Control, Practical, Self-Contained, Orderly, Systematic, Precise, and Accurate

These conservative appearing, plotting-types enjoy organizing, data systems, accounting, detail, and accuracy. They often enjoy mathematics and data management activities such as accounting and investment management. Persistence and patience allows them to do detailed paperwork, operate office machines, write business reports, and make charts and graphs.

ORGANIZER CAREERS

Suggested careers are Administrator, Secretary, Printer, Paralegal, Building Inspector, Bank Cashier, Private Secretary, Statistician, Operations Manager, Financial Analyst, Bookkeeper, Medical Records Technician, Developer of Business or Computer Systems, Clerical Worker, Proofreader, Accountant, Administrative Assistant, Banker, Certified Public Accountant, Credit Manager, Store Salesperson, Actuary, Dental Assistant, Business Education Teacher, Food Service Manager, IRS Agent, Budget Analyst, and Underwriter.

ORGANIZER WORKPLACES

Your very careful, conscientious, conservative nature gives others the confidence to trust you with handling money and material possessions. Structured organizations that have well-ordered chains of command work best for you.

Suggested Organizer workplaces are large corporations, business offices, financial lending institutions, banks, insurance companies, accounting firms, and quality control and inspection departments.

2nd Best Occupational Category

You're a RESEARCHER

Keywords:

Independent, Self-Motivated, Reserved, Introspective, Analytical, and Curious

These investigative types gather information, analyze and interpret data, and inquire to uncover new facts. They have a strong scientific orientation, enjoy academic or research environments and prefer self-reliant jobs. Dislikes are group projects, selling, and repetitive activities.

• Section I: You and Your Team
  This personality overview section highlights your natural workplace talents—the tasks you pursue with passion. You'll learn how your natural strengths complement those of your coworkers and how, joining forces, you can resolve on-the-job dilemmas.
• Section II: Your Key To Success
  Here you discover your capacity for dispelling disruption and maximizing profitability. Use this proven, beyond-self-perception advice to create a more positive career path free of detours.
• Section III: Managing Strengths and Weaknesses
  Your evaluation's highest and lowest scores result in this section's recommendations for staying on-track in your career and reversing wrong turns. In focusing on your talents and missteps, you'll re-stoke your energy and enthusiasm for managing costly mistakes.
• Section IV: Leadership Power Moves
  This final section identifies your "street sense," those power moves that turn obstacles into insignificant details. Here suggestions based on your color-ranked evaluations will guide you towards making the most of an interview or harnessing your fast-paced workday.

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accurate meh?

you guys be the judge la. then tell me what you think.

*on a separate note: I'M HOME~

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I’m not in control of my brain anymore. It’s like this statement I heard from somewhere:

A brain is an organ that we think we think.

Explanation: We are under the impression that we think using our brain, but we don’t. Realise the fact that the brain of the common mortal thinks for is owner.

If this is too confusing, ask me for an example personally to help you see the clearer picture.

Anyway. Back to the brain. I think my brain has a completely different personality from me. Ah I dunno la. But the main point is I don’t know what I’m thinking anymore. I don’t know what I’m feeling anymore. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore.

I don’t know why I’m chasing anymore.

It’s like running a race, where the person ahead of you is always there. Ahead of you.

It’s trilling at first, having a goal. But when the goal runs faster than you, runs faster than you, it gets tiring. There’s no pit stop, no time where you are able to catch up and catch a breath. Because you just don’t catch up. You just can’t.

All you can do is to continue running, continue chasing, and watch your goal go further and further away, like the gradually lengthening distance between the water surface and a drowning person. No matter how hard the drowning person swims, the surface will never seem to get nearer.

Soon the person will be devoid of air. Sooner still, if he continues the struggle. Then the lack of air forces the person to give up, against his will, even if he wanted to go on.

The difference of strength between them just too big.

To surrender is just so easy.

It won’t tire you, drain you of all your strength and spirit.

But I still want to forget the existence of this choice: giving up.

Then maybe I can still find the extra strength I need to carry on.

When Music just SPEAKS to you

i normally listen to a set playlist. on normal days, they just pass by as normal tunes, however on certain other days one of the songs would just pop up and hit me, telling me things, as if they were trying to speak to me.

i suppose on those certain days i must have been in a certain sate of mind; or a certain mood, to have to be able to receive these subtle messages within the songs, to feel whatever feelings the singer/composer must have wanted to convey.

i say this because songs that spoke to me rarely, if ever, speak to me again. and certain songs that i find ordinary would spark my interest so much after such conversation that i would later favourite it.

just recently the chorus of this song grabbed me and hasn't let me go since:

ABBA - Whats the name of the game

I've seen you twice, in a short time
Only a week since we started
It seems to me, for every time
I'm getting more open-hearted

I was an impossible case
No-one ever could reach me
But I think I can see in your face
There's a lot you can teach me
So I wanna know

What's the name of the game
Does it mean anything to you
What's the name of the game
Can you feel it the way I do
Tell me please, 'cause I have to know
I'm a bashful child, beginning to grow

And you make me talk
And you make me feel
And you make me show
What I'm trying to conceal
If I trust in you, would you let me down
Would you laugh at me
If I said I care for you
Could you feel the same way too
I wanna know

The name of the game

I have no friends, no-one to see
And I am never invited
Now I am here, talking to you
No wonder I get excited

Your smile, and the sound of your voice
And the way you see through me
Got a feeling, you give me no choice
But it means a lot to me
So I wanna know

What's the name of the game
(Your smile and the sound of your voice)
Does it mean anything to you
(Got a feeling you give me no choice)
But it means a lot, what's the name of the game
(Your smile and the sound of your voice)
Can you feel it the way I do
Tell me please, 'cause I have to know
I'm a bashful child, beginning to grow

And you make me talk
And you make me feel
And you make me show
What I'm trying to conceal
If I trust in you, would you let me down
Would you laugh at me, if I said I care for you
Could you feel the same way too
I wanna know
Oh yes I wanna know

The name of the game
(I was an impossible case)
Does it mean anything to you
(But I think I can see in your face)
That it means a lot
What's the name of the game
(Your smile and the sound of your voice)
Can you feel it the way I do
(Got a feeling you give me no choice)
But it means a lot, what's the name of the game
(I was an impossible case)
Does it mean anything to you
(But I think I can see in your face)
That it means a lot

not expecting others to be able to hear what i heard cuz the song will speak differently to different people at different times. it's really a personally subjective thing. ^^

and to think i used to think that listening to music was a distraction and a waste of time.

ah the ignorance of youth.