Sunday, November 28, 2010


Again, yet another week-late post. This time, its not that I have nothing to write about, nor is it that I have no time to write. I have the time. But I spend it on things too trivial and unimportant. I need to learn how to properly manage my time. Haih.

Time and tide waits for no man. How true.

I have many things I want to write about. Mainly what I thought of when I was reading some book, watching some show, playing some game, or doing some stuff. I get my best inspirations when I am busy and while I can jot down the main gist of it, all too frequently it takes me too long to sit down and give it a proper body. Then when I finally sit down to write, the inspiration is nowhere to be found.

I like reading/watching stories that are thought provoking.

However, too often with those thoughts come different conflicting emotions.

That part, I don’t like.

But emotions are a very defining part of human beings, I guess.

Monday, November 15, 2010


Years ago I used to think that listening to music was a total waste of time. A needless hobby which has no benefits whatsoever. So much, that I would question everyone back then about why they’d do such a pointless thing.

The answer I most frequently got was: because it was relaxing.

I was even more confused. To the me back then, music was nothing but noise. If you I wanted to relax, it would be better if I was in some dark room, devoid of everything.

Yeah, back then a pure combination of total darkness, silence and solitude was my only way of releasing stress.

Still is, though. Just not the ONLY way anymore.

I don’t know since when, but I have come to realize what I did not before. That listening to music was relaxing.


Because it gives me something to focus on. To escape the literal world I live in.

This is also partially why I like music with good lyrics. Because its something more concrete that I can focus on apart from the shapeless melody that accompanies it. Of course the melody complements the lyrics. Or else I’d be more of a fan of poems, won’t I?

Poems are not bad, by the way. ^^

It’s a bad habit, actually. To focus so much on music that you I tend to ignore everything else around me.

I’d turn on the volume so loud that often I don’t realize that my attention was needed elsewhere until I see frantic body/hand movements from someone else.

Somehow the loud music brainwashes my mind and throws me into a pseudo-consciousness that lies to me. Saying:
there’s no one around you. Your world is only consists of what you can see. Other than that, nothing exists, even space. Everything around you is just a limitless black vortex.
ooh~ brainwash in progress~

Yeah. That’s actually what I see when I’m focused on something, in case anyone was wondering. Nothing but the thing I’m handling. Haha.

I think I’m getting to much off track.

Actually the purpose of this update is this:

My new baby!!!

It’s JUST toooo Friggin AWESOME!!!!! XD

I’m an extremely materialistic person. I know.

It’s not my fault that I like inanimate objects better than humans. It’s just that I don’t like them enough.

If I like it, I get thrown into total obsession. ^^

I just don’t have a reason to get obsessed over humans at the moment.