Wednesday, February 18, 2015


Sometimes when you care too much, you run the risk of falling into tunnel vision.

You care too much, you think too much, you assume too much,  and then you stress too much. Both you, and everyone around you.

The brain and the heart each has thoughts of their own.

But the brain, ever rational and logical, will never win against that of the heart. Irrational, impulsive and sometimes downright delusional.

Stop caring.

Let your brain have a chance to think.

To make rational decisions.

You might find that it helps you take more care.

As with all things, easier said than done. 

Sunday, February 08, 2015

Curbing habits made possible due to addiction

I'm bored. It's not healthy that I spend every unoccupied waking moment of the day craving for the drug that I had been addicted to for quite some time.

It is certainly no less worse that every free moment is suffered with withdrawal symptoms so heartbreaking I feel like I don't have a purpose anymore.

I made up all the excuses. I tried to read minds, to predict behaviour. To explain myself over thinking things. I believed. I trusted. I still do.

The half of me says I'm an idiot. I never gave more than second chances. Why is this any different? Why is the other half not stopping? Why do I still want to believe?

I never wanted to be a pest. But I never behaved like this before the addiction.