Lies

Lies are bad. I don’t like lies. But it seems lately I seem to be telling white lies more frequently than I’d like. People say white lies aren’t so bad, sometimes people don’t need to know the entire truth. But what happens when you want to tell the truth so badly but sometimes it is the human society’s quick turn to prejudice that prevents you from doing so?

For some reason, although every single self improvement and motivational book will instruct you to be true to yourself, to be direct and confident in whatever you say or do, the very human society we live in discourages us from living in such a manner.

In order to adapt to others, in order to tolerate and be tolerated, we have to change ourselves, the way we think, speak and act. To think about others. To be sensitive of their likes and dislikes. To tolerate things that are sometimes rejected by your very soul.

In my dictionary, adapting is synonymous with tolerance and change. Adapting is to not be yourself. Adapting is to transform yourself into an acceptable human being so that others can tolerate your existence around them.

Be yourself, they say. True friends will accept you for who you are, they say. But be prepared to tolerate (change a part of yourself) so that you can in turn be tolerated. So in conclusion, Everyone changes. Nobody acts like themselves anymore. We get grouped into stereotypic groups whether we like it or not. Even if we do not fit any particular stereotype we are already part of the “unusual stereotype” group. Birds of a feather will always flock together.

Indirectly, the twisted mindset of the society we live in forces us to live a white lie every day. The only way we might escape this is that we lead solitary lives. And people wonder why more and more people stay cooped up in their rooms, surfing and communicating over the net. And ignorant fools that we are we blame the advancement and misuse of technology.

But we accept this. Why? Because at the very core of our being we need approval. We need acceptance. We need affection. We need companionship and kinship. So much that some people go crazy craving for it. Some people get by using A.I. or animals. But others turn into psychopathic serial murderers.

Scary, no?

so tired

It's hard to keep up with my one post per week schedule when i come one all exhausted and all i want to do is lie on my bed and sleep.

+ it's no easier when all i do during work is to get sudden inspirations of what to blog about, what to write in my stories (that i'm still working on), how i'd like to draw the stuff that i've saved in the computer... - just to forget ALL about them when i finally get off work and is too tired to rack my brains for what i had thought about earlier in the day.

==ll

ah well.

English for Occupational Purposes

There’s a course I have to take in my studies called English for Occupational Purposes. One of the assignments in this course is to read motivational and self improvement books. So this is what my friend read:

Which got me thinking of him:

"My name is mooojo-JOJO!" XD

I used to think that he’s really cute when I watched the powerpuff girls back then. The redundant way he talks is really entertaining. Really liked listening to him talk. ^^

"I do not talk like that! The way I communicate is much different. I do not reiterate, repeat, reinstate the same thing over and over again. I am clear, concise, to the point!"

Ahha. The irony. Another example. XP

"I, Mojo Jojo, am your master, and you shall obey my commands like the dogs you are! Because I am your master, it is I who you will obey! Obeying commands is what you’ll do! I will give you commands, and you will obey them!"

Anyway for some reason I have always liked the villains better than heroes in any show that I watched. Wonder why.

However there IS a condition. The villain cannot be a hero in disguise (e.g. I’m doing this in order to let you have the chance to be the hero… etc) I find it irritating if a good guy pretends to be a bad guy and then when he is defeated, he reveals everything that he’d done was for the good of everyone like he’s the person who sacrificed the most. It’s like a call for attention, wanting the whole world to sympathize with you and hail you as a god for your sacrifice for humankind.

Wth. If you wanna be a villain then be a villain la weh. For example, in Harry Potter books I initially liked Malfoy until JK Rowling started writing him up as a wimpy character. ==ll

Haih. So dissapointed. I started disliking how the series started to twist after the fourth book. And the ending in the last installment? Yeah. I hate it.

Back to topic, despite saying I hate two faced characters, I like daredevil and batman wor. They are those kinds of heroes that have this dark past that wronged them but still manage to turn out good while their past still haunts them.

Must be because they only come out at night. Other superheroes work mostly in the daylight (as if night takde crime) and they fight supernatural monsters. The difference is that this two, they don't have super-strength or super-speed or whatever. They are humans, they fight humans, and they use human-trained techniques.

These two bring forward the message "When there's a will, there's a way" instead of heroes like superman whose message is, i suppose, something like this, "I can do this because I, and ONLY I, have the power beyond what a normal human can reach. So kids, don't do this at home!"

Aiya, this post has nothing to do with the title, has it? Haih, the way my brain leads sometimes is so goddamn random. lol.