Sunday, February 08, 2015

Curbing habits made possible due to addiction

I'm bored. It's not healthy that I spend every unoccupied waking moment of the day craving for the drug that I had been addicted to for quite some time.

It is certainly no less worse that every free moment is suffered with withdrawal symptoms so heartbreaking I feel like I don't have a purpose anymore.

I made up all the excuses. I tried to read minds, to predict behaviour. To explain myself over thinking things. I believed. I trusted. I still do.

The half of me says I'm an idiot. I never gave more than second chances. Why is this any different? Why is the other half not stopping? Why do I still want to believe?

I never wanted to be a pest. But I never behaved like this before the addiction.

1 comment:

stupid monk said...

You can do it, babe~ hahaha~