Holding. Finding. Letting go. Grabbing. Owning. Pretending.

Sometimes, when people tell you to let go, reality is, you KNOW you have to let go.

You KNOW that holding on is stupid.

That holding on so desperately so something that will not give you the time of day is utterly ridiculous. 

That holding on to that which you feel so dear to you will not bring you any results. At least, any results that you dream would happen if you held on for long enough.

You KNOW. You really do.

But you can’t let go.

To crap with whoever said “If you really want something, let it go. If it belongs to you, it will always come back. If it doesn’t come back to you, then it never belonged to you in the first place”

Because you know if you ever let go, you know it will never come back. And you can never fool yourself into pretending that it still belongs to you. Not ever again.

Like a kid and his favorite toy, the only way to ask the kid to let go of the toy is for the kid to realize he wants a better toy. Only then he will let go of the previous toy in an effort to own the new, better toy.

This has always been the condition for me to let go of anything.

I need to be obsessed with something better.