...

I thought,
I can finally believe in myself.

I thought,
I have overcame my fears, regained my lost confidence.

I thought,
I had improved.

I thought,
Someone finally acknowledged my improvement, my efforts.

I thought,
Someone finally believed in me, my skills.

And so I was ecstatic.

I felt so grateful for that belief, that trust.
But it turns out I was wrong.
I was still doubted by everyone.

I did not win that trust I needed.

And so I was disappointed.