Tuesday, March 23, 2010

我不知道

我知道,人类有上万种性格的动物,

可是我不知道,要怎么同那些拥有和我不同性格得的人类相处。

我知道, 人缘很重要;

可是我不知道,要怎么跟某些人沟通。

我知道, 所有人都有踏错脚步的一刻;

可是我不知道,要怎么去原谅踏到我尾巴的人。

我知道, 我对某些人的态度很不公平;

可是我不知道,要怎么改变我对这些人的偏见。

我知道, 世界不止有我一个;

可是我不知道,要怎么把除了我的存在容纳在我的世界之内。

我知道, 做错要认错,这是小学生都会的事情;

可是我不知道,要怎么看着他的眼睛,认真的对他说“对不起”。

我知道, 遇到帮了你一手的恩人要懂得感恩;

可是我不知道,要怎么在他面前,从心里表达“谢谢”。

我知道, 在现实的世界里,一个人是不能生存的;

可是我不知道,要怎么停止活在只有我一个人的梦幻之中。

我知道, 我这么做是错的;

可是我不知道,要怎么强逼自己把剩余的力量把自己推到正确的路上。

我知道我是不知道很多很多事情;

可是,

可能这就是身为恶魔的我,

永远领悟不到的人类所拥有的性格。

Saturday, March 20, 2010

In the midst of things...

I feel so relieved at the moment. But at the same time I feel like I'm running out of time. Ironic, no?

Life's like that lately.

I'm happy cuz I've finished half of my pressing workload, but the other half's pinning me down and getting me depressed at the same time.

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I know, I'm rambling. Oh well.

^^ annual dinner tomorrow ^^

Monday, March 08, 2010

Now I remember why i'm not an Atheist

Why?

Cause at times I feel there's this higher power helping me avoid bad things in life. And i'm sure i've said this a million times: "sure i don't get the best out of life, but i'm glad i'm not stationed to pick up the worst bits either."

That, people, came from a self-professed pessimist.

yep. i'm just happy to receive the normal bits. not the best, not the worst.

and i really feel blessed that i do not have to fix my car.

cuz some overgrown kambing on four wheels dashed out of a junction cross the road where i had right of way nearly made me hit it. i was doing =... 80? 90? no idea.

luckily there were no cars to the left where i swerved to, or if there WAS, luckily i did not hit them.

i'm sorry for the shock i gave to the two passengers i had then. lucky im accustomed to high speed turns, no? haha just joking.

and for the record, i'm a deist praying to buddha. XD